okay today was a horrible day. :| not really la... but it was pretty bad. history final in the morning [am convinced i will Flunk and Do Badly And Not Get Into Three Pure, Etc, Etc.] then returned chem ppr, flunked badly [basically, i flunked, which is Very Bad] and i really did fail, which is so horrible and blegghhh. and i was like, dont cry in class you stupid doofus, and kept chanting Learning Opportunity now you know. when they talk abt iodine, they mean solid. ahhhh. not the brown liquid used to test the presence of starch.
whatever.
then ppr given out, and got damned bloody pissed at the "expectations" column, like: eng: a2-b3 chi: a1-a2 hist: b3-b3 geog: b3-b4 art: b3-b4 sci: b3-b4 and wt-bloody-f?!?!?
you want me to get some fcuking a2 for english isit? what kind of bloody exp are those? like what, a1 for chinese, INSANITY YOU WANT ME TO GET A FCUKING B3 FOR HIST?? AND ENGLISH. HOW CAN I GET ONLY A2 FOR ENGLISH? I AM SORRY, BUT THAT GOES AGAINST ALL THE NATURAL LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE. THE DAY I DO BETTER IN CHINESE THAN IN ENGLISH IS THE DAY HELL BLOODY FREEZES OVER. i am SORRY, but that is NOT gonna happen. like hello, how the HELL do they come up with these exp? cannot be my psle grade. nor my last yr grades. HELLO, i got a A1 in eng last yr, a* in psle. and in CHINESE, i got a [b]C5[/b] last yr and an a for psle [they want ME, chi-dyslexic gurl, to get a1???] so WHAT CAN WE CONCLUDE??
the exp part of the ppr is a waste of ink.
i am SO glad we have finally sorted that out.
watched x2 during hist. (: ahhhh. lolx. me and bingx were insane we were like, OMG THAT GUY IS SOOO CUTE!!! and wolverine: "yue kan yue xiang wang jian" muah.ha. the ice guy? hes damned cute. acted seriously bimbotic. (: told liping abt the whole jake epstein thingy! (: hahaha. so weird these days. High on the fact that italy is in like, TWO DAYS!!! woohoo! haha. (: will camp out in m's and jiaming's room, stealing their junk food and polluting their air. and avoiding Her. said damned loud some Bad Stuff Abt Her today. and She kinda... heard. :| m didnt tell me she was behind. :| blegghh la. nvm, whatever. cant find it in me to be Nice yet. haiz.
okay will now go and read others blogs and continue to Be Stupid. bb
just watched anastasia... ahhhh. demitri is so cute. haiiiz. (: love the song love the story love the guy. what can i say? perfect movie. (: lolx. talked abt the russian revolution...makes the tsar into a very compassionated and nice man, and the "comrades" total crappers. :| "but in the history book it says that the workers were rii-ii-gg-hh-ttt!" *whiny tone* the winners end up writing history. :| bleggh it all. but its still wrong to wipe out an entire family.
me and suyee were squealing over jake epstein... hes damned cute la. (: cam from zack files (unfortunately taken off studio d) ahhhh. *swoon* (: if i can manage to figure out a way to post his pic up i will...ahhhh. hahaha.
[b]Journey to the Past[/b] [i]Anastasia[/i]
Heart don't fail me now Courage don't desert me Don't turn back now that we're here People always say Life is full of choices No one ever mentions fear or how a road can seem so seems long or how the world can seems so vast on this journey to the past
Somewhere down this road I know someone's waiting Years of dreams just can't be wrong Arms will open wide I'll be safe and wanted Finally home where I belong well starting im learning fast On this journey to the past
Home, love, family There was once a time I must've had them too Home, love, family I will never be complete until I find you
One step at a time One hope then another Who knows where this road may go Back to who I was On to find my future Things my heart still needs to know Yes, let this be a sign Let this road be mine Let it lead me to my past And bring me home At Last
-- and of course there is the ever beautiful at the beginning sweet story. really romantic. sigggghhh. [[melt//]] im such a sucker for things like that.
FINALLY FINISHED NOTES!! AHHH!! YAYY!!! saf still sucks anyway. brit announce withdrawal jan 1968 cuz of financial probs initial withdrawl mar 1968 postponement dec 1968 (yea. like theres much of a difference???) the rest=cannot really rmb??? accckkk. will have to really study tmr. during the crap briefing thing i guess. :| whatever.
hate this. its so propaganda.
great sucker for romantism. (:
life is a road i wanna keep going love is a river i wanna keep flowing life is a road now and forever wonderful journey ill be there when the world stops turning ill be there when the world is thru in the end i wanna be standing at the beginning with you. (:
got into humungous trouble last night... IM SORRY TO EVERYONE AFFECTED like: family althea cassandra (sorry for waking you up!!!) celine and whoever else my mum called last night
im supposed to be feeling more than a tiny tinge of guilt. but i dont. maybe cuz i fessed up instead of continuing with the lie. :| ok. note to self: NEVER DO THIS EVER AGAIN
anyway, im steadfastly avoiding [i]her[/i] perhaps shell get the msg like: i dont wanna talk to you anymore you hypocritical bitch so shutup and get lost? somthing along those lines.
shld be studying hist now. chapt 14 (LAST CHAP, THANK GOD!!!! but still have to learn maps and revise chaps5 and 9 AGAIN for the BILLIONTH time and go thru all the chaps AGAIN and ask mum to test me for 4 billion times before monday's final) the last 2 chaps (13 and 14 on HDB and SAF) are b.s. all propaganda crapology.
*high falsetto*
"HDB is SO much better than SIT!!! you know why??? cuz SIT was run by the brits who couldnt care less abt us!whereas HDB was run by locals and they were steadfast in their jobs! also they had more money!! and their only reason was to build houses!! thats why! isnt HDB SO GOOD??? somemore they won the united nations world habitat award for tampines town!!! and they are in the united nations housing and developement board thingy! and got the singapore Quality Award in 1997!!!! I LOVE HDB!!!"
and so on and so forth, ad nauseum. ewwwww.
and have to memorise MAPS WHY DO WE HAVE TO MEMORISE MAPS WHEN THIS ISNT GEOGRAPHY??? ARRGH. danfong insists on seeing the Brighter Side of this. "its only five maps!" -.-''' okay. thats nice for her. :p
history is SO propaganda. "nation building" spore triumphed over SO MUCH and LOOK WHERE WE ARE TODAY?? wowww. :| what can i say? history is turning me into a psychotic freak. joyy.
bb all. will go stew in my extreme historical ignorance.
reached home like damned late yesterday?? 10+ at least, but parents werent really pissed cuz i kept using celine's phone to call them and tell them where i was and stuff like that ~THANKS CELINE! (: yst was really fun. did the yi shu mi cheng thingy with liping, celine and danfong walked like XIAO and legs almost drop off today, woke up aching all over. this is an obvious indicator of my poor physical state. haiz.
yst was a nice day. it was fun. was nominated jp. wasnt insulted by tan. (: yayy think i got back that FANTABULOUS chinese ppr yst? or day b4. anyway, it rocked. (: 83.5!!! EIGHTY-THREE POINT FIVE! ahhhhh!!! UPON HUNDRED!!!!! i was like screaming into my pilloe and almost crying cuz you know i cry whenever i am happy/sad/angry/pissed/up set/etc.
today sucked. in the morning had to scream for ages without anyone caring, and + i am SO SICK of screaming. tmr, im just offing the lights and zhaoing. to hell with the hw-copiers. (well, that includes...ME! (: ) soo sleepy today. tan was veh disappointed in us. cuz got alot of bad things, and many frm our class? and he kept talking abt lots of things. and told us personal stuff. and i find myself warming to him, cuz how can you not? i was almost crying, kept thinking abt mama and was saying to myself, cannotcrycannotcrydontbes uchababy. and nowadays its getting better, but its like sometimes before i sleep i think abt it and then i cry like mad for 1hr and slepp crying, nxt morn wake up with puffy eyes, cannot open. today actually intended to do alot of things. but only ended up doing two? cuz was damned sleepy, got home aft choir, talked to gnia, went home with gnia, and then fell asleep cuz damned sleepy!! cannot stay awake, then wake up in time for dinner. and do ipw. -.-''' :| hate ipw. this is so retarded. need sleep. maybe now will go pack my file/pencil case? then can sleep feeling so chengjiuganish. (: yayy. actually wanted to study hist too. woke up before dinner in a veh pissed off mood. but all i can think abt is ITALY!
6 days to italy 4 days to hist final (which i havnt studied for) 6days to bunking with the person i want to strangle. joy to the world.
lixuan and me have the same prob. maybe we can just room tgt and they room tgt. (: haha. cherie chong!! kill you!!! when miss lim said the luggage thing stare at me! and gnia also!!! ahhh! :| its not my fault my mum likes to Be Prepared.
am damned bloody pissed with chaiyue. she is saying that I was the one out of tune on the tues that was veh out of tune. i am so angry and pissed off at her. i want to kill her for being such a bloody hypocrite and telling cassandra that "gen is so unprofessional, she went out of tune" like, FCUK YOU? even if i went out of tune, no one could hear me anyway, cuz i sing bloody softly. i was so angry that i wanted to cry. :| she is such a BITCH. arrghhh!!! i really dont wnat to bunk wif her anymore! why is she saying this kind of things abt me its not like i did anything bad to her or anything la. as stated above, bitch.
dont want to talk abt it/thinkg abt it/rant abt it any more. i hope she brings the bloody adaptor thats all.
i am so pissed! today was a horrible day! felt left out and excluded. gave my tie to janis, bingx said that i looked weird without my tie. haha. but felt weird like, why no tie strangling me?? (: was a jealour little spoilt brat. nvm. pray abt this. will be better tmr. wuill be nice to everyone. the Perfect Student. epitome of Perfection.
-- darn. i REALLY dont want to study chem of acids and alkalis anymore. I HATE ACIDS AND ALKALIS i really want to pon school tmr. i dont want to go to sch for the next wk until we fly for italy. fcuk. cannot pon tmr. got italy briefing. -.-''' this is so unfair. I HATE ACIDS AND ALKALIS.
was/am damned pissed with the class today. what fcuking things must you do in order to get some bloody attention/respect/silence ? teachers treat us like their personal assistants classmates like overzealous psychotic freaks and its not we sit ard doing nothing but we still get ebaten up for trying to actually get the class somewhere ON BLOODY TIME bcuz oh anyway, if theyre late, whos the one scolded? the monitors thats who. isnt that a JOY? i REALLY CANNOT STAND IT. what "the joys of leading" and all that shit is just b.s. cuz there is NO bloody JOY or whatever shit abt "leading the class and blahdeeblahh" cuz the name "montior" is just a tacky, unsuccessful name for the term: "slave" get it?
nvm. must ren. only 6 more days before its over. six mkore stressful days of yelling at the class and being insulted by teachers. six-more-days. mantra. chant. soothing.
hell, i was saboed into being one. you think i want to be? im so bloody angry i can hardly think straight because the montiors are UNDERAPPRECIATED, OVERWORKED, AND NOT PAID. isnt that nice?
[b]countdowns[/b] 10 days to italy 2 days to chem test 8 days to hist final 18 days to boot camp 43 days to sng-nyg concert 43 days to fe's birthday 46 days to MY BIRTHDAY
ooh. just realised that the barney song i did cracked fe up alot. (: muah-ha! so anyway here it is:
i hate you, you hate me, i wanna bash your head right in, with a great big BISH and a bishy booshy boo, blahdeeblah doncha hate me too?
its directed at the ever-fantastic FT, was pissed at him (AS USUAL) and was scavenging the fridge for food, then thought of this.
sung to the barney song! (:
-- i thought the sun rose and died on you i thought you could walk on water i thought all you spoke was gold and silver i thought you would always be there for me but i guess i was wrong naive disillusioned now i know who you really are what you really think of me your actions scream intentions maybe it was just me took something and twisted it around jumping to conclusions idiot.
-- dunno what that was abt. its not really abt me, but it is, kind of. but some parts are not. its just all these funny weird gan jues which tumble out and say " HEY LOOK AT ME WRITE ME DOWN WHO CARES IF IT ISNT REAL??? POETIC LICENSE!!!! FORGEDDABOUDIT!!" etc, etc. haiz. whatever.
its fun talking to fe. im scared to lose her friendship. im scared to lose grace's friendship. im just scared. cuz it means that im REALLY a loser as what bro likes to say??? haiz. sighhs. blahdeeblahdeeblooes.
its is so damn hot. and the aircon broke down. :| yayy aircon. great timing.
went to kor's hse to get "tutored" and got whammied with the fact that i am BAD at chem! yayy!
NaCl: salt CO3 2- : carbonate CaCO3 2-: calcium carbonate (limestone) 2H2 + O2 -- 2H2O (balanced chem equation) group --- period | 1+ 2+ 3+ 4+ 3- 2- 1- 0 (noble gas) periods: tell charge grps: no of shells full shell configuration: octet/duplet Al 3+ Cl - AlCl3 heat: change of state thermal decomposition oxidation (combining with oxygen) well actually combustion expansion contraction combination endo-taking in [bond breaking] exo-giving off [bond making] *above two do not make sense light: photosynthesis photography solar cells mixing: no heat. just bish a substance and bish in another substance and poof it becomes somehting new! (: okay. that so did not make sense. electricity: heat magnetic effect light electrolysis [fake magnets] -extraction of metals -in scrap yards!
i have come to the conclusion that not only am i chinese-dyslexic i amk also CHEMISTRY IMPAIRED
[u][b]The world is mine[/b][/u] [i]poem ripped off frm natalie's blog. (:[/i]
Today, upon a bus, I saw a very beautiful woman. And wished I were as beautiful. When suddenly she rose to leave, I saw her hobble down the aisle. She had one leg and wore a crutch. But as she passed, she passed a smile. Oh, God, forgive me when I whine. I have two legs; the world is mine.
I stopped to buy some candy. The lad who sold it had such charm. I talked with him, he seemed so glad. If I were late, it'd do no harm. And as I left, he said to me, "I thank you, you've been so kind. It's nice to talk with folks like you. You see," he said, "I'm blind." Oh, God, forgive me when I whine. I have two eyes; the world is mine.
Later while walking down the street, I saw a child I knew. He stood and watched the others play, but he did not know what to do. I stopped a moment and then I said, "Why don't you join them dear?" He looked ahead without a word. I forgot, he couldn't hear. Oh, God, forgive me when I whine. I have two ears; the world is mine.
With feet to take me where I'd go. With eyes to see the sunset's glow. With ears to hear what I'd know. Oh, God, forgive me when I whine. I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine.
just read althea's blog and reminded me of this really bad incident. someone or at least a clique in the s2 level is super evil and malicious and vindictive and few thousand "evil" words. its freaking me out. and seriously, if IM freaking out, what abt the person theyre doing it to??? tong seems so together and not flustered. me? im so freaked out im imagining things. like yst, on the bus, there was a black square bag at the back of the bus. some cisco thingy. i freaked and thought it was a BOMB and moved to the front. obviously, the bag did not explode. :| then i kept feeling someone following me when i was walking to the lift lobby, and in the lift alone i was also freaked out.
see??? IM UNRAVELLING AND THIS ISNT EVEN HAPPENING TO ME!
sighh. i just hope that the evil ppl are caught soon. and expelled? maybe. theyre so evil.
al told me stuff that i dunno what to do with. im really confused and freaked out. i wish nothing ever happened. danfong is so gungho abt it and everything. i just want to forget abt it, pretend it doesnt exist. like the ostrich burying its head in the sand. the "hey, i cant see you, makes sense that you cant see me too!" concept. blah it all.
it HOT. as in, australian-summer-y HOT burning, crackling, if-we-had-bushlands-they- would-burn-up kind of hot. and guess what? OUR AIRCON JUST BROKE DOWN! what PERFECT timing, airconditioner DEAR :roll: so now its sweltering outside and NO RELIEF FROM THE HEAT!!! accccccccccccck. basically have been slacking all day. all week, to be honest. (esp aft the chi test) haiz. fail chem! fail chem! blahdeeblah blah! haiiiiiz.
going for ajc concert later. eating dinner with chuiyen and althea and qing2 and yingxian and (um. sigh.) amanda and chaiyue. i guess the last two invited themselves. okay, whatever. hope theyll be good? lolx. got the rjc tickets, but heres the problem! the rents dont knmow im ponning lp nxt fri to go watch it? (: sighh.
feel inspiration-less. so thats why im not doing mum's notebook thingy. bishybooshybleh
okay. the heat is obviously affecting the state of my mind. :| bye then
i like my hair today. its messy. but in a nice way.
i am so lame. why am i talking abt my hair? its flippy at the ends. my hair. (:
i am so bored. nothing nice on tv.
i hate him i hate him i hate him. asshole bastard stupid pig i want to mince him into fine little pieces brainless moronic jerk insensitive clout monotonic boring loser disrespectful ingrate i want to throttle him drown him kill him drag him through pain and heartache and sorrow he doesnt understand how i feel assholic bastard im what? his bloody slave? im not. im his older sister. bullying asshole.
im so angry at him i want to kill him. he makes me sick. i hate seeing him and hearing him and what he says. i just want him out of my life, damnit.
going to rgs choir concert. siying just called. :| feel so bad for forgetting to call her.
She groans. Small, soft. Heads whip around and pin her down with swift glares. Her eyes dart around, afraid to meet their irritated glances. They have already turned back to their test papers, scribbling like their life depended on it. She looks down at the paper. She wants to moan, long, loud. The words and numbers are a hazy blur in front of her face. She doesn't understand the significance of algebra in the real world. "Time's up!" The teacher calls. The students lift their heads, glaring at the teacher. Does he not see geniuses at work? Does he not understand genius is not to be disturbed. Stupid man. She hands the paper over. Her paper is blank.
-- i have not idea what that was abt. i have no idea what its trying to say. i dont even know why i wrote the damned thing. whatever
i have decided that today will be a Slack Day. all days shld be slack days. i just had one yesterday. i am a lazy pig.
sigh.
i have a feeling i have Alot Of Homework. but i dunno what they are, so shrugs and dont care. 12 more days and the strangling tie and glittery badge will be banished from my life FOREVER!!! (becuz theres no way any sane person will make me jp/prefect/moniotr next yr once they glance at my poor academic performance and general slackiness)
[b]10 things i will like abt not being a monitor anymore[/b] 1. no need to yell at ppl to get out of the class 2. not getting scolded for doing something which you did not do 3. being able to pon school and not do hw without feeling guilty 4. being able to be sent out of the class without feeling humiliated cuz ur a monitor and monitors dont do things like that. 5. being able to Break The Rules 6. being able to be Anti-Social 7. not seeing disappointed looks on teachers' faces when you fall short of their high expectations of a monitor 8. no need to yell at the class 9. no need to do stupid things like try acting enth8u abt going for assembly 10. causing the nxt batch of monitors extreme grief and making their lives hell, the way it has been for us. or me anyway.
i dont want to talk abt it anymore.
[b]me now[/b] tired stressed sleep deprived compressed squished choky feeling flushed face heart dropping failing thinking and thinking amok thoughts always- irritated pissed angry inside. at me the world everyone including YOU
just been reading laurie halse anderson's speak AGAIN, for the billionth-and-one time. i like the way she uses short sentences to create dramatic effect. Ponned dance today. was pissed off with the class before dance and before art. as always, no one wanted to drag their butts out of class but milled ard the tables and babbled crap. was so pissed i yelled that i wasnt giving a damn anymore and stomped out of the class in true spoilt brat spirit. i am such a GREAT role model. :roll: nose was dripping snot like a broken faucet. couldnt think straight. wanted sleep. ponned dance and read nora roberts' cheapesake bay. slouched down and acted anti-social. was pissed with the world.
me and althea were drunk. laughed until want to die up the stairs to the art room. i ate 6 blocks and al ate 7 blocks of rum and raisin chocolate. was insanely drunk.
have not done science coursework yet. blah it all.
[b]hypothesis:[/b] gen will fail science, art and chinese.
[b]procedure:[/b] make gen and her partner althea drunk on rum-and-raisin chocolate. give them an absurdly hard photoshop thingy to do. ensure that they are pissed off at the computer for not allowing them to minimise the damned thing to 40% instead of 33 or 50%. send two people called manpin and bingxin to sit opp them and not tell thenm how to minimise. make them click the wrong thing and ruining their proj. make them have to do everything again. THEn have gen have a fabulous idea to dim the duplicate image. OMG!!! FCUK IT ALL. i think we forgot to rename the gradient layer. oh, fcuk. oh yea. and make it seem as tho there are two mouths. hopefully it will divert mr foos attention and he will give pity-marks for Creativity. more likely it will piss him off and he'll minus even more marks. yayy for gen and althea.
[b]result:[/b] gen fails art.
[b]conclusion:[/b] gen will never get into triple science or take biology for the rest of her life. gen will also not get into art stream and she will live out her days as an anti-social recluse who ppl avoid cuz she isnt as successful as they are. they will look down on gen and she will be regelated to sweeping the roads to get pocket money for lunch. [b]gen will disgrace her family forever and ever amen!!!![/b]
ACCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK.
i feel so bloody (a) stupid (b) inferior (c) failure-ish
just cuz i (a) wasnt picked for math training/olympiad (even tho if i was i still couldnt go, so that is an irrational reason, a sign of a psychotic-freakish mind) (b) am going to fail art (c) am going to fail chinese and drop to express, which means one and a half yrs of stressing out over chi has come to naught (d) am going to fail chem cuz i dont understand nuts (e) have no friends and am anti-social
forgive me. i am Depressed today. read thru speak and when it came to the hospital part abt the lady crying cuz her husband had a heart attack i nearly burst into tears. passed by a funeral (thank god it was christian) which made me Think (not a good sign) and almost made me Cry (which is also not good). have to plan some dumb Grandparents' day thingy and whenever i hear tan talk abt it i want to cry. and scream. and plunge knives into him. all of the above. except that the latter two is how i always react to him so its not like theres any difference in my normal everyday behaviour.
i need to time travel back into the primary school days past so that i can have a taste of clique-ness and belonging-ness then ill come back and act as tho im perfectly fine with this. its just sad that time machines have not been invented yet.
i need someone to comment on my work. ways to improve. my conclusions always suck. i ruined the anoreixa compo by the disgusting way i ended. i also ruined the other compo bye ending in a cliche, tacky, heinous, despicable, embarrassing way.
ppl keep saying i have friendster. I DONT. theres another psychotic mochaaddict out there. not my problem. imposter. get outta my face.
was veh pissed with bro today. i am everyday, so no big diff. called him alot of Bad Names. in return, he also called me alot of Bad Names. so i guessed were even.
sigh. the pressures of sec school are slowly erroding away my sanity.
me and grace are currently debating on whether or not she is pro. she is not. (: just had a looong talk with fe on the fone abt fagotty ppl (: [hahahahaha. inside joke. :p]
i am so PISSED with huiyi. if i wanted it to spread ard, then i would have talked abt it. as far as i know, you shldnt be spreading things like this ard. so just shuddup and get a life. stick to ur real name. stop throwing ur weight ard. ur class did something. fine. but you act as tho MY class hasnt done anything and thats not fair to my class. so anyway, just bloody well GET A LIFE. errgggh! annoying.
class today was okay. wanted to pon, but didnt. (: see? so quai. yea right la. haha. but find it very weird when mrs ang calls me gen. its like so weird la. and i was so mortified when mrs tian said the stuff abt me today? it was so bloody embarassing... okay, parents back, bye!
hmmm... its a lazy sunday afternoon (like almost all sunday afternoons are) it is HOT, HUMID, SWELTERINGLY UNBEARABLE, and the AIRCON IS ON! YAYYS! okay, that was stupid. i have a CHINESE TEST on TUESDAY! and i have to go to the HOME on MONDAY! also, enid is giving CASTLES on MONDAY, so i will definitely stay up laatteee to read that! and GUESS WHAT??? I WASTING TIME NOW AND NOT STUDYING CHINESE, A SUBJECT I AM BODERLINE-PASSING!!! yayy!! also, i have MATH HW due on MONDAY, which is TMR! and I HAVE NOT DONE IT! i also have ENGLISH HW assigned by scary teacher TIAN due on MONDAY, which i HAVNT DONE! and what am i doing now??? *resounding monotone answer* NOTHING!!!
how absolutely wonderful. fine. i am so bloody tired of working hard (when even tho i study so bloody hard for my chinese i still dont do well anyway, so why bother???) errrrggghhhhhhh. i wanna pon school on tuesday. yes, i shall. i will find a way to get horrendously sick on tuesday. maybe a high fever. yupps. hope it rains BADLY tmr then i will go out in the rain "sing/scream in the rain" (: and I WILL GET SICK AND NOT NEED TO TAKE THE TEST OR HAND IN ENGLISH HW! YEA!
fe is sick. i want to see fe now. FE, PASS ME UR GERMS THRU THE COMPUTER!!!! I WANT FEDORA EE'S GERMS!!!!
give me ways to either (a) get REALLY SICK by tues or (b) persuade my mum that is is ABSOLUTELY CRUCIAL for me NOT to go to school on tuesday ~and i will be ur friend forever and ever amen! (: lolx. so stupid.
haiz. im so lazy. (: haha.
grace came to plmc today. spent half the time gossiping abt guys with audrie??? lolx. but it was nice to see her again. YOU BETTER COME TO ST NICKS CHOIR CONCERT GRACE TAN! hmph.
will blog-surf now.
maybe i shall stuff myself with chocs and get sick due to chocolate overdose!!!! OR, go and buy loads of some sweet which has something which has a laxative effect. OR BETTER YET, JUST GO AND BUY LAXATIVES TO GET DIAHORREA!!! ummm. :| that was lame.
THANKYOU GOD i have FINISHED the damned proj. yesss. tho my printer is mutating all the colours into god knows what, THANKYOU GOD! tmr still have to go school and hand it in to *expletive* *expletive* mrs ang. *go see altheas blog for a list of correct adjectives. no la...althea was damned fierce with mrs ang. haha...laughed like mad when i saw that list.
now doing the cover pg for the stupid written report. at least its done and printed out, THANK GOD. now waiting to get the clip art! errrggghh...faster, clip art FINE i give up on clipart. i go to gettyimages/freefoto to get the pic. errrgh. freefoto didnt have any decent ones.
it is 12:40am. what is gen doing??? IPW WRITTEN REPORT!!! at least better than going to school and doing tmr. sigh
THE COVER PAGE IS DONE! and very well done too, if i do say so myself. (: lolx. okay, once printed, i will go and off the com and punch the holes and then dump it in the file and blessed, beautiful ~SLEEP!
*shoot. the com colour is not nice. blahhs la. its NOT THAT BAD ANYWAY. haiz. cuz the pic didnt turn out well, have to cut and paste another pic. BLAH LA.
my mother makes me so mad!!! ahe blamed me for the virus being downloaded: I DONT DOWNLOAD THINGS. i repeat: I DONT DOWNLOAD THINGS. jeez! and then she lays into this whole bloody guilt thing. please, i am in SECONDARY SCHOOL. i have a TON OF PROJECTS AND HOMEWORK DUE IN THE NEXT 24 HRS. I ALSO HAVE TO STUDY FOR TESTS AND A HISTORY FINAL. can you please cut me some slack, for god's sake??? she acts as i spend my days LAZING AROUND IN THE BLOODY SUN DOING NOTHING what the HELL does she know what im doing anyway? im so pissed with her and my stupid brother that i need to scream.
apparently, the definition of "younger brother" is: (n) ungrateful, wretched assholes who treat you like slaves and dust they grind under your feet
i LUG the pair of shoes back home and he KICKS THE SHOES ASIDE! errrrrrgggggghhh! i am so PISSED at him!!!
saw danfong at thomson plaza today. was so shocked nearly fell off the damned seat!! haha.
lp today was okay. got back yet another compo, which was marked nicely (nice grades, yayy! (: ) but which i felt deserved less cuz the comments she gave were really nice and the grades (23) also nice, but felt as tho i didnt write well enough to merit such grades. bleggh.
choir was okaay. apparently they had a huge scolding from serena yst. *gasp**shock* and she did it in fron of miss lim... applaud her bravery. (: lolx. dunno la...miss lim was telling us not to take it to heart and blahs. haiz. but today was okay la. had to do weird things with suriram, it sounded so weird!!! accck. (:
never bring me art today, then dragged althea with me home and back to school again. haha...was damned funny but so retarded.
so in deep shit. hate tan. hatehimhatehimhatehim. how DARE he say that we monitors dont do our job? ASSHOLE. i want to plough my fist in his fat smug face. in other words, i want to punch him.
stupid man. im so pissed at him. i really cannot stand him.
in art now. supposed to be fnding info for the proj but i cant even print it out here, cuz not allowed, and the com at home is down, so its just a bloody waste of time.
i sound damned pissed dont it? good. (: i am, at TAN. stupid, stupid man. he is such a BASTARD for saying that we dont do our jobs, that we only do it for CIP POINTS. GET A LIFE, DAMNIT. CIP POINTS IS CRAP. i really want to murder the life out of him.
went out with grace on sunday. was damned fun, except that part where we got STALKED! (: lolx, that was damned funny.
well, it wasnt at that time, but now as i look back, it is. (:
com is down thanks to some stupid virus. damn it all. :| haiz. i am SICK of inferno, screaming in the rain. althea is sitting beside me doing her work. so quai. (: haha. and im being such a disobedient child. playing with the com after the teacher has left. i like mr foo. he gave me a book of munch's paintings to see last wk. so nice. him AND the paintings. (: lolx.
went out with sonia to ps yesterday. took neos in which our us became invisible!! and also wandered ard sppotlight for ages for mum's mother's day pressie. couldnt find the foam i wanted, so in the end bought felt and sponge. hope she will like it!!! arrrgh.
im supposed to be going to sleep now, but i have this Feeling that my com is abt to break down- the way it seems to be constantly doing, theres some weird virus in my com which has been thriving in there for abt 3days liaox??? lolx. anyway, wanna wish all stressed sec4s good luck for the prelims [being the nice, caring and considerate person i am (:] cuz im stressed, and im not even having os this yr! my dad just tried to fool me by saying that i wasnt typing anything out... BUT I WAS!!! HAHA DADDY DONT TRY TO FOOL ME! (: lolx. i think i shall go and watch the oc. the girl is super chio! (: and that guy ryan [is that his name?] is also veh poor thing...his mum just ditched him liddat.
haiz. maybe not, im getting abit crossed-eyed already. i always get crosseyed when im sleepy...sighh. tmr got alot of hw to copy, so must sleep now! [haha...im always copying hw, no wonder im doing so badly] ~nites and sweet dreams everyone!
got my art photos liaox... but my printer like got problem, then never print properly...so now its like RED or BLUE, and you cant see the raindrops. how the hell do you draw raindrops anyway??? for god's sake, raindrops are too fine and tiny to PHOTOGRAPH! okay la, whatever. sleepy and tired after a hard day's work of Poster and Art Photo Sourcing. and also Choir and School. im capitalising everything. this is a sign of true insanity. goodnight.
pissed with LOADS of people today... was in a super foul mood but was still jumping around singing hercules songs... :| im so weird. hercules is on disney now, but the Annoying One who also goes by the name of brother wants to watch the stupid chinese show which doesnt make sense and has a crap storyline so i cant watch the movie. stuuupppiiiidddd boy.
People I Want To Kill Today Annoying One tan ms lee molly cheong
tan: behaving like the asshole we all know and ADORE, still has that baadd sense of time and an inability to recognise that recess is at 10:45, NOT 10:50, 10:55, or even 11am. behaving like a moronic jerk towards jeridyn and throwing her xiaodingdang pillow on the floor, even though shes the only one in the entire class who actually adores him in the real sense of the word. taking attendance this morning without telling me, as if im to inferior to be spoken to, and waiting until i have wiggled my way thru TWENTY THREE people before i find out that the blasted idiot is taking attendance so all my tongku was in VAIN. ASSHOLE.
ms lee: actually, chaiyue can be included in this section as it is evident that she thinks im angry with ms lee for giving me a bad grade for music. I AM NOT. i DESERVE the bad grade cuz we went flat and sounded like shit. but the point was that could she not have seen that practic the entire class was upset over the music thing? and somemore come and rub SALT into the BLOODY WOUND by saying we didnt practise enough. IF SHE HAS NOT COME INTO OUR CLASS AND HEARD US NOT PRACTICE, SHE HAS NO FCUKING RIGHT TO SAY THAT 2UNITY DID NOT PRACTICE FOR THEIR MUSIC TEST. chaiyue pointed out that her class practiced alot. need i point out that MY CLASS PRACTICED ALOT TOO. we gave our best, but evidently our best was not good enough and is looked down upon by others, e.g., our own music teacher! *wow, dont we have SUCH NICE teachers?*
molly: she has issues with SHOES. rather, the placement of shoes. the annoying person made pamela and sihui arrange our shoes properly. my god! like they are her maids or something!
cheong: babbling on abt crap and wasting our time, also, not telling the sec2s of the nj thingy, we deserve to be given such a choice. just cuz she wants to retain academic talent in st nicks does not give her the bloody right to play god and dictate whether we shld skip 'o's or not. bitch.
it is a sad day when all one can do is grouse abt idiotic people instead of sending them to the hell they so richly deserve.
okay. that was NOT christianly. sighh. but at least im upholding my promise to god, with the much help of Him, to be decent to caifen, and i HAVE BEEN TRYING. i actually had a okay convo with her today, which meant i did not ignore her when she opened her -big- mouth, i did not actually cut her off, i listened and made erudite comments. that is encouraging in my movement to Be Nice To Caifen.
